Nang maging kami ni Mc.greeve i thought my life was complete, and i thought i was a luckiest woman in the world kasi nakatagpo ako ng guy na very caring and understanding and lahat ng gusto ko sinusunod nya.. ( wala ako masabi sakanya) his always there every time i need him.. i am so happy with him lalo pagkasama ko sya.. sometimes nga gusto na namin pabagalin ang oras pagmagkasama kami para tumagal na nasatabi ko lang sya kasi sobrang bilis ng oras pag magkasama kami siguro nga di namin namamalayan ang takbo ng oras... kaya i'm afraid of loosing him i think hindi ko kaya.. but sometimes i thought na bka sooner or late mawala sya sa akin,.. but i told my self na be ready for that.
But...
One day hindi ko alam nahahantong ng ganito lahat "January 16 2007" nawalan kami ng communication sa dahilang hindi ko alam,. then one day nabalitaan ko na lang sa cousin nya na may girlfriend na daw sya..
Sobrang di ko alam kung anung gagawin ko that time, depressed na depressed ako nung time na yun feeling ko that time lahat bumagsak sa akin. iba kasi ako mag mahal eh todo todo. Ni hindi ako kumakain that time, ni hindi ako nakakalabas ng kwarto lagi naang ako nakatulala.. balisa, tinatamad, laging umiiyak.. dumaan pa nga ako sa prosesong umiinom na ako ng gamot paralang makatulog..
Lahat ginawako para makalimutan sya lahat ng pwedeng ikabusy ko ginawa ko para lang matuon sa iba ang atensyon ko pero "WALA PARIN NANGYARI.."
May 8, 2007 HINDI AKO NADALA!!!!! sa ginawanya.. "i love him e!" yan parati bukang bibig ko sa mga friends ko halos batukan nanilaako para makita ko yung realidad na totoo. kaso hindi ko sila inintindi wala eh mahal ko talaga eh.. kaya igave another chance i accept him and i forgive him paniniwala ko kasi that time may pagkukulang din siguro ako, and kasama nasa forgiveness ang kalimutan lahat ng ginawa nya na kataksilan,.
May 8,2007 NAGKABALIKAN KAMI! pinagpatuloy namin yung relaionship namin..
kaso di rin nagtagal kasi that time parang narealize ko na i need to focus muna sa studies bakakasi pag dumating ulit yung time namagbreak kami baka di ko nanaman kayanin..kaya even though i love him so much! wala akong magawa kundi piliin kung saan ako mas mapapanatag..kaya i told my self that maybe we aren't meant for each other after all.. i'll think about it many times..
Years ang binilang para masabi kong handa na muli ako muling pumasok sa isang realasyon...
Sinabi ko sa sarili konon hinding hindi ko nasya babalikan pa dahil tama na yung sakit na naranasan ko mula sa pag-ibig nya..
This last summer 2010 nakita ko sya sa starbucks some where in pasig.. umattend ako some meetings..nakita ko sya pero di ko sure na sya kaya di ko pinansin.. pagkalabas ko ng starbucks nandun sya naghihintay.. kinuha nya number ko , binigay ko number ko but not expecting something.. nagtetext sya minsan tinatawagan nyaako pero wala na ko feeling sakanya..
that too shall past.. and now kahit gusto nya pa rin ako, gusto ko friends na lang kami.. :-)
that's what you called past..............
About Me
- Annejelyca Castelo Benedicto
- My existence to this real life.. I easily get annoyed with people who think they're perfect. Some misunderstand and think I’m cold and distant. I'm a very straight forward and some people misunderstood my words. I just don't care about things that don’t affect my existence. Who cares if people hate me? Who cares if those or some people irritated with me, who cares about those sharp tongues assholes? Definitely not me. As long as something makes me happy and comfy, and remains within the level of common politeness, I’m cool with it. I grew up in a conservative family which made me wanted to try things outside, I'm sensitive, easily get hurt, and often feel uncared for even for simple reasons but only to those whom I have connections with. You may see me as unapproachable, snob, quiet person but limited bubbly I have come to accept the wild freaky image I reflect, I'm not like any ordinary girl. I am me and I’m different with, the kind who goes out and explores the real world.
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